Asymptotes of Knowledge

FUCK!!!!! I wrote this huge long post probably a little longer than the last one but interesting the whole way through but fuck it im re-writing it.

To start it off let's cover an asymptote. You remember in Algebra 2 when you did asymptotes? It was that invisible line (though some calculators made it visible) that the function would approach but never touch. It could get infinitely close but there was never a computed value and that point. Lets take for example  (x+3)(x+4)/(x-7)(x-5) The numbers 5.0 and 7.0 would cause the function to blow up because it would require to divide by zero, in which there in no computation. it work perfectly fine at 4.999(infinite)99999 and 5.000(infinite)0001 but not 5.0 same goes for 6.999(infinite)999 and 7.000(infinite)001 but not 7.0 Those were asymptotes.There are two questions I think may lie on an asymptote

The two most bizarre questions in the world have to be 1) Why/How anything at all instead of nothing 2)Why/How are we aware that there is something. Basically the jump from "nothing" to "something" and the jump from "matter" to "mind" Both jumps are FUCKING WEIRD. i think no matter what angle we approach it from whether it math philosophy science logic or reasoning i dont think we'll ever trap an answer. its frustrating to accept that but i do get some weird solace in always wondering about it.

Question 1)
Why/How something instead of something? Its weird to think but there is no reason to why there's something instead of nothing. And i mean NOTHING. not the nothing your thinking of which i a vacuum probably, I mean NOTHING. Imagine a 3x3x3inch cube with a vacuum inside, inside that cube is not "nothing" theres still space, that emptiness still occupies a volume and is in the same frame of time as us. The best way i can describe nothing is how Laurence Krauss (famous physicist youtube him and his lecture "something from nothing" interesting stuff. what we consider nothing really isnt nothing) put it. Imagine all the contents of the universe (space,matter,energy, Everything) in a suitcase, "nothing" is whats outside the suitcase.(time will not exist outside the suitcase because space and time are two sides of the same coin hence the word "spacetime" if it helps, time is the fourth dimension, it cant exist without the three dimensions before it we call "space"(length,width,depth) so if there's no space there's no time. I'm not making this shit up lmao) But stuff exists, we know there is "something" now so at some point it must have jumped out of nothing, just POOF popped into existence. its a weird concept to wrap your head around "why is there even anything at all"
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(some people just say, God. well then who created the creator, and who created the creators, creator. you get caught in an infinite regress and get no where. and if you say Gods eternal than at what point of eternity did he create the universe? at the beginning of eternity? no such thing. halfway through eternity? no such thing. (think about it) Infinity/eternity are weird concepts and to the best of my knowledge dont exist in nature but dont take my word for it im not completely sure.)
*back on track*
I dont think we really ever will understand that i think its an asymptote in our capacity of understanding. Really think about it, there could have just been NOTHING.

On to question two. Well we know there's something, and that itself is as mind boggling as the fact that there is something. The most human/unique thing about humans is that we can think abstract thoughts (math, ideologies, sarcasm (just a small list of things)) and even question our own existence. We have a brain that gives birth to our mind/consciousness/ego what ever you want to call it.As if it wasnt odd enough that we went from "nothing" to "matter" now from "matter" we suddenly have a "mind." if you dont think thats weird you havent though about it enough. Imagine you were just standing and then suddenly your atoms just spread all over the floor, you would "die" right? now if you could re-arrange those atoms in the exact same order would you come back? would you know you were gone? what would have that gap been like? A bunch of atoms that normally just follow the laws of physics suddenly give rise to an independent mind that acts on its own accord. you can predict exactly where the moons gunna be and when, you can predict when the suns gunna fizzle out but you dont know when billys gunna move his arm. or how fast or in what direction. Consciousness is a weird phenomena. Just how people are quick to say "god" when elapsing the jump from nothing to something people are quick to say we have a soul/spirit to elapse the jump from matter to mind. You should never just accept an answer because its satisfying. Id rather accept that it just may be an asymptote in our knowledge. Just because you may never get the answer doesnt mean you cant infinitely moving closer. and whats a life without wonder?


*pulls hair out* I hate this post and it will probably be my least satisfying post ever!! the first one was WAAAAAAY better, it wrote it off the top of my head it was fluent funnier more thought provoking just better in every way i dont even like this one but ima post it anyway. ill DEFINITELY revisit this subject on a later day when inspiration strikes and it feels natural.never know people may have like this one more but I def dont